sehari sebelum xmas

aktiviti ini dijalankan pada waktu siang sehari sebelum krismas bersama sidah. hari isnin adelah hari ramai org kat bank kan? beliau pula terhegeh hegeh baru nak bayar yuran uitm. since dia hanya dpt ptptn sebanyak rm500 satu semester, yuran beliau tidak dipotong tros melalui ptptn.

hadoi penat nunggu ni. dlm bank ni dah mcm kedai vincci kat mana2 mall. tau la vincci kan dah mcm pasar borong. hahaha

sudahnye, pasan tak si sidah ni pegi kaunter ni dgn bukan no giliran dia? no giliran dia seperti yg diatas. tp dlm gamba tu dia pegi slamber ngaku tu no dia. sbb after 4pm banyak no yg tade org. pelik btol org yg amik no tp tanak tunggu dah buang no begitu saje. nape tak letak je tepi amik no tu. kan senang kami2 yg dtg ni amik je? hiks!

frust!

<***> jap ek
[nazla] okie
<***> nak belaja buat graphic sket
[nazla] owh

after about 10 minutes waiting

[nazla] lama nye?
<***> aha
<***> busy sket
[nazla] so u wont be able to chat?
<***> i guess so
[nazla]ok then.

no reply.


he dun even says good bye or good nite. he left me with away message:

*** is away: I've no regrets. I was sincere in everything I said

kaunseling bersama saya

i went to lepak2 with some friends tonight. dari kul 6.30 sampai la kul 9.30 baru la beredar dari Pak Li.

pastu anta la kawan laki ni. sampai je depan umah laki ni, layan plak tgk video klip inul dlm kete. layan abes! pastu, kawan pompan ni anta la i balik umah. skali dia ngadu. dia dlm dilema la sket

currently dia ade relationship ngan satu mamat ni. dah 3 taun dah. memula laki ni bagus. to pd pendapat i la. but cume dulu dia tak sedia nak kenalkan si pompan ni pd kawan2 dia, family dia bagai. dia tak kisah sgt si pompan ni kuar ngan sape, berkawan ngan sape.

tp since pompan ni sambung blaja, bese la kan. sesapa pun bile dah cube sesuatu yg baru, dpt kawan baru, bukak mata, bukak minda, bukak fikiran. so pompan ni berkawan baik la ngan satu laki lain. pompan ni layan baik la si polan ni due to his kindness kan?

skali si polan ni suke plak kat pompan ni. sampai pompan ni rase telebey lebey lak si polan ni care about her. dia suke kawan ngan si polan ni. tp bukan nak jd bopren pun sbb dia dah nampak si polan ini akan spoil pompan ni ngan harta. ape saje pompan ni kata lawa, esok luse dpt la menatang tu.

dan bermula la cerita nye sang bopren terasa tercabar. jeles. dan terhina gamaknye. baru la tehegeh hegeh nak kenalkan pd family, pd kawan2. sang pompan ni dah cube berkawan ngan kawan2 sang bopren. tp kwn2 sang bopren ni canggeh manggeh. takes time juga la pompan ni nak beramah mesra.

sampai la satu tahap jeles si bopren sampai dia ckp dia dah tanak amik tau dah kalo btol si pompan ni masih contact2 ngan si polan td. si pompan ni mcm tersepit la. dia sayang bopren. dia sayang kawan dia. dia harus lakukan sesuatu.

lalu kaunselor bernama nazla membantu. hiks! bg i, she should know what is her priority. if dia stil nak ngan sang bopren, dia harus la memberitahu si polan tiada apa akan berlaku antara dia. and dia harus juge beritahu si bopren dia willing to change tu pun kalo si bopren juge sanggup make changes for their own good. masalahnye skang, sang bopren kata, he will. but tak janji. dia takot nak janji. so i ckp lg ngan si pompan ni. yakinkan si bopren yg anda btol2 dah buat keputusan utk mencube skali lagi bersama dia and mereka akan lalui bersama.

hah nak tau? sedang i menaip kat sini. tibe2 si pompan called. dia kata si polan tu ADA DEPAN UMAH DIA WITH FLOWERS. hahaha aiyo. cmne mau setel? nak tanak dia harus beri masuk sbb si polan datang dari johor. jauuhhhh! and i advised her. u should tell him tonight. tiada tangguh2. untuk kesenangan sume sekali.

sekian.

lembu mode

due to raya korban, mesti dpt daging korban kan? my family tak berminat ngan daging korban actually. since my mom ade high blood pressure. me as well allergic to meat and mutton.

selalunye daging korban akan diberikan kpd mom's officemate. dia sangat suke daging korban. dia kata dia takleh makan daging len selain daging korban. no comment for dat.

last night uncles and unties dtg umah. the brought some daging korban since pakcik wat korban kat kampung. oleh kerana seluruh dlm umah ni tak makan, bg plak kat pak andak. pak andak wat mihun sup tulang. mari serbu umah dia!

makan tak hengat dunia. mak dah ngadu pening. i dah rase nak muntah. oleh kerana teringin nak makan mihun itu, buat tatau je sama rase daging itu. hahaha balun saje. tp pastu dah rase mual2. i made and brought cupcakes to pak andak's house.

dah abes tulang temulang dlm sup tu, dgn slamber je pak andak tambah ngan ayam lak. makan lagik!

sudahnye mak dah surrender kat umah pening kepala. me? puas ati. hahaha


note: ive heard yanie's new song. eh new ke? kind of lagu lama dia but dia nyanyi sorang. previously nyanyi ngan diddy. ive hear from bro mad's blog. its nice. really sounds nice. shes good. im touched.

try comfortable by john mayer pls.

angry mode

pagi ni i was angry with my bro. and i really dun wanna talk about dat anymore. so i went lunch with sarip and leely. then pas kul 2, sepul join sama.

skali sepul bg cadangan. mari tgk wayang! hah ape lg sume kata mari la kan? so halo la nadia. tak sangka plak nadia bawak angkatan tentera umah dia sume.

so kami ade 8 org. cube la nak book thru online. nak select seats. skali connection slow gile. asked la sorang sis ni bantu book kan. padahal dia tgh keje tu. pun tak leh gak. so gamble la pegi

sampai2 je tros beli 8 tiket. 6 for students and 2 for kids. penat gak la kakak tgv tu nak tulis nama dlm borang tu. hoho.

we watched alvin and the chipmunks. best la gak. tp jauh dari my expectation la. siyesly jauhhh. and satu lagi. i dun mind if parents slalu bawak anak2 tgk cite cmni.tp takkan sampai bawak baby masuk? baby nak tgk ke? dah nanges lak tak benti2. rase nak halau je pun ade

bukan niat nak being selfish but ape point bawak baby masuk cinema? dah la bunyi baby ni tak benti2 nanges. ade lak sang adik badik gado2 dlm cinema tu. yg duduk blakang i lg la, agaknye dia resdung. skali dia tarik hingus rase mcm dia telan sume kahak. yerkkk! annoying gile.

pas abes cite tu, ingat nak tros balik. skali nampak giodarno wat sale only for 6 hours. so deme pun serbu la kedai tu. tp sempat gak snap2 gambo. mcm gamba kat bawah ni sbeno nengah nunggu nadia tak gak kuar2 dari giodarno. sepul, sarip and leely.

ni mase sarip ngan sepul lak serbu masuk. adoi org mcm sardin dah

hah kata pun masuk back to school. ruang legar kat ground floor ni mcm2 jual. jgn kata bebudak. kami pun excited tau. haha

the brown shirt is nadia and her sister sebelah itu. sebok nak carik pencil case kaler pink. ye la mereka obses ngan pink

sempat lg posing kat dpan vincci. ade gak sepasang dua yg i berkenan. nnt la dulu ek? saba

hah dah lepas jalan2, kami pulang. kami dpt duk blakang. yey! sepul jd driver arini. hahaha biakan org yg baru dpt lesen duduk depan dedua itu.

kalo nak tau, sepul ni bwk kete muke siyes gile. tp nak laju je. tak padan baru dpt lesen. hah tp utk kami slamber je. bukan slalu dpt duk blakang. hehe hati2 tau abg sepul muahaha

lastly akan ku simpan tiket wayang ni as usual. overall kalo saje2 buang mase, sile la tgk alvin and the chipmunks.

sekian

would like

i would like to tell u everything or anything happen in my daily life. for these several days, i just feeling lazy to type. to express is another issue but i dunno whether is it appropriate or not to mention here. hmm.

kdg2 rasa i am more to merepek dari ckp facts here. i am more to merungut rather than do good things.

so nanti la ek. but i do have some fun these days. my nadia cooked macaroni for us. it was luvly. finally i had time to continue my routine watching greys anatomy. i helped my mom kat dapur for aidiladha. i made some little tiny cupcakes for my aunties and uncles.

i went to mak, abah's kampung as usual. i got duit raya from my momma. tak banyak but its still i appreciate it.

and hey, what does we need to be a very very super bestfriend to other people? mcm mana kita nak tau yg kite ni mmg besfren dia? adekah mesti

• dia tak rahsiakan pape dari kite?
• dah kenal lama. or maybe grew with together?
• dia percaya kat kite?
• kite percaya dia 100%?
• jujur antara satu sama lain?
• kite ckp 'eh awak la kwn baik saya'

pening pk. help me

with humble

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha

with much luv

streamyx sucks!

hadoi. what happen to streamyx these several days. asyik disconnect je. dunno why. tengah syok2 berym, surfing2 skali disconnect. kacau mood btol.

anyway, i started to watch greys anatomy for season 3 just now. baru 1st cd. no moOd nak tgk 2nd cd or whatever because i have to wake up early tomorrow morning. bese la sesi mengambil hati bonda tercinta.

this evening i went to watch movies with Leely. we went to JJ Bukit Raja and watched 2 movies today. senang skaligus. tayah p banyak2 kali. the reason nape hanya pegi ngan leely? sbb others are not available. do this and that. people have other commitment aite? tu je alasan yang i leh pk utk reason why kwn2 len takleh join sama. enough of that.no comment

i watched Echanted (actually jeles bile kak anne ckp psl McDreamy) and i watched I Am Legend. luckily for both of us dat ive made a reservation for both movies and we watched I Am Legend first. it was a serious movie act by Will Smith. I wish and pray to God, those things happened in dat film never ever happen in reality. Hard to imagine if those things happen here.

Then we watched Echanted. I will say dat it was fun. I enjoyed this film because those fantasies, those singing and dancing and last but not least ade Dr Sheperd *winks*. i luv Gisselle costumes, i luv singing and dancing and I LOVE PATRICK DEMPSEY hahaha. and the part when Gisselle panggey kwn2 menatang dia suruh kemaskan rumah tu, bleh tak digune pakai kat umah i? LOL. easier kan? hahaha

coming soon i would like to watch National Treasure 2, kpd org yg tatau ape cite nye. pelakon nye is Nicolas Cage as librarian tak silap. jaga baraang2 lama.mesti best!

and to all Grey's Anatomy fans, Katherin Heigl aka Dr Izzie Stevens berlakon dalam satu film yg akan come out soon. tajuk cite 27 Dresses. cant wait!

siyesly i need to go to sleep rite now and dreaming about McDreamy. Much Love, MwahX

tagged

hello. tagged from kak meen ni. sile refer dibawah. huhu



1) Name of a person who made you laugh last night?
siti & ana. both of them are my cousins

2) What were you doing at 0800?
still sleeping.

3) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
reading other people blog.

4) What happened to you in 2006?
biggest achievement on dat time was grad diploma in accountancy

5) What was the last thing you said out loud?
ye!! to my momma

6) How many beverages did you have today?
plain water, f&n strawberry and teh o ais.

7) What colour is your hairbrush?
pink color

8) What was the last thing you paid for?
kfc nyum2.

9) Where were you last night?
uncle's home b4 going home

10) What colour is your front door?
dark chocolate

11) Where do you keep your change?
wallet, tabung, laci, atas meja, dlm poket suar. everywhere

12) What's the weather like today?
tak ujan. bese2 je

13) What's the best ice-cream flavour?
vanilla, chocolate and yam. yummy!

14) What excites you?
blogging, food, movies, shopping complex, donuts, mekdi haha

15) Do you want to cut your hair?
yeah. but maybe end of the month eh year i guess *winks*

16) Are you over the age of 25?
luckily no. ehehe

17) Do you talk a lot?
yeah but it depends to whom

18) Do you watch the O.C?
no. i luv charmed, i luv angel, i luv ghost whisperer and currently in luv with greys anatomy. yeah yeah mesti kata ketinggalan kan?

19) Do you know anyone named Steven?
yeah my old irc friend

20) Do you make up your own words?
yeah some words. khulafa i will call as kul. nak buang air i sebot kench. hahah usually i will make them shorter.

21) Are you a jealous person?
yeah but depends

22) Name a friend or friends whose name starts with the letter 'A'.
Afzan, Alan

23) Name a friend or friends whose name starts with the letter 'K'.
Khirza, Kasturi

24) Who's the first person on your received call list?
aiseh. i baru je cleared log hahah

25) What does the last text message you received say
dunno juga coz i dah delete sume inbox. menyemak hahah

26) Do you chew on your straw?
yeah. its a habit to me.

27)Do you have curly hair?
yeah

28) Where's the next place you're going to?
place? bed? hehe

29) Who's the rudest person in your life?
i dont need to put in here aite?

30) What was the last thing you ate?
kfc. nyum2

31) Will you get married in the future?
of course.

32) What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
anak halal. its a good movie though

33) Is there anyone you like right now ?
nope i guess

34) When was the last time you did the dishes?
petang td

35) Are you currently depressed?
yeah. a bit

36) Did you cry today?
almost.

37) Why did you answer and post this?
kak meen suruh sbb dia kata since i baru balik vacation haha

38) Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
nawwar, cleo, ziana, sean, hanim. tp kalo ade yg mau buat, dialu alukan =)

busy day

im back! finally, i ade mase utk myself. ala bukan la tade mase cume 2 ari ni ade aktiviti luar. sejak jumaat lagi. remember pakcik yg bought me shoes tu? he asked me for movie. so dari i tgk dia bercinta ngan wife dia, i heret skali my younger cousin. kami tgk Anak Halal dat nite.

honestly, Anak Halal ni sangat la best. tatau la pd org lain. but to me, they taught me a lot. dalam kite mengeluh mengenang nasib kita, ade lg org yg tak bernasib baik dari kita. sampai rase nak menangis bile tgk cite tu. bukan sbb sedih benor pun. cume sedih tetibe compare kan ngan family kite sendiri.

hah ingat balik dari tgk wayang tros pulang? bayangkan tibe2 makcik ajak pegi bukit bintang. dia nak p berurut. haiyo. dari bukit raja pegi bukit bintang. ke situ ke sini ke sana ke sinun, dah dkat kul 5 pagi. bole tak pakcik tanak anta balik umah! dia suh tido umah dia je. haiyo. dah la tade baju ke ape. nak tanak tido la. dgn tak bitau mak nye.

dlm kul 7.30am call abg, suruh amik. tak kire! nak balik gak. ye la satu ari tak mandi. dah balik tros tido sampai la kul 1 pakcik tepon. tau p mana? ajak main golf plak! pegi je la. bukan kene kuar duit pun. lgpun cousin nye besday aritu. alih2 sampai kat padang golf tu ujan lebat. haha tak dpt aku merasa men golf. pakcik pun kempunan la rase kayu yg baru beli semalam.

ive no idea yang kayu golf tu riban2 ek. patot la nama nye sukan elit. tak kisah la, duit dia pun. dah ujan tu, pakcik ajak la p jusco bukit tinggi. nak bagi adiah utk si kecik besday girl tu. beli 2 pasang baju, sepasang kasot, makan kat laksa shack, beli donut kat Apples and Donuts. beli kasot cousin lg sorang. yang paling terkedu tibe2 makcik nak beli UZap? btol ke eja? ala yg kaler ijau ikat kat pinggang ade vibrate2 tu.

balik dari jusco pegi umah cousin nak sambut besday dia. dah makan2 ade ke pakcik ajak pegi uptown! hah yg tu aku surrender. tak kuase aku p sana. kaki dah letey. perot dah kenyang gile. mata dah layu. baik aku kata tanak. sorry la pakcik. saya takmau

balik je umah, sempat tgk tv kejap je. skada2 je. pastu baring atas katil, tros lelap. tade golek2, tade angan2. hanya tido sampai la kul 11 pg td.

finally, i have time to do my laundry, kemas kan bilik, lipat kain, tgk csi marathon and buat cookies. and tidak lupe juga akan ke Giant temankan mak beli barang dapur dlm sesi mengambil hati bonda. *winks*

alpa.leka.lupa

hello.

if orang tny i how was my vacation aritu. i akan jwb its great. i mean ade jugak yg tak best but ok la skali skala tuka angin kan?

anyway, i went there with my mom, aunty and 2 cousins. abah ngan abang tak ikot coz diorang have to pegi keje.

apa yang paling dikesalkan, dalam masa 3 hari i went to melaka, abang tak 'cucuk' abah pun. fyi, my abah ade diabetes and dia harus disuntik dgn insulin called insulatard. tetiap malam, i nye duty mmg cucuk abah with 12ml insulin.

so since i dah pegi melaka, abah tak diberi insulin, balik je dari melaka, abah nampak pucat. menggigil, muntah2. as fas as i concern, kalo abah rase muntah2 tu maknanye kuman dah naik ke atas. fyi jugak, abah ada luka kat tapak kaki. dah lama dah. tp tak gak baik2. ye la, org ade diabetes kalo luka mana cpat sembuh. apetah lagi kat tapak kaki.

balik tu tgk kaki abah bengkak semacam. panas je kaki dia. itu jam jugak la suruh abah makan and i inject dia with 15ml insulin. doctor pnah ckp, if nampak mcm dia lain sikit je, suntik with 15ml. lagipun dah 3 ari abah tak kene inject. mana kite nak tau dia makan ape sepanjang kite tade kan?

apa yg i regret sgt, adekah menjadi satu masalah kalo im away. i mean i tade kat umah, org len takleh gantikan? sume dlm umah tau kan? abah mesti diberi insulin. payah ke ek? ke takot? ke mmg tanak amik tau sbb kalo dah tau, nnt kene buat? even mak pun tatau cmne nak cucuk abah.

ok, i paham if kata tak sampai ati. tp sampai ke ati tgk abah cmtu? dah 2 ari i balik ni, abah susah nak tido. kdg2 time2 ni tgk abah tido kat atas sofa kat living room. dia kata takleh tido. kaki tu bisa. kaki tu saket. rase nak muntah. kdg2 dia tido je atas lantai depan tv. tak sampai ati tgk abah cmtu. dia siap pesan, kalo dia tetido kat mana2 jgn kejut. dia susah nak tido pastu.

i feel sorry for abah. oleh kerana itu, td i dah bersuara dlm umah. i tny mak, susah sgt ke org len nak blaja cmne nak cucuk abah? takkan pasal i tade je jd problem plak abah tak diberi ubat? so mak kata bia la dia blaja. malam ni i ajar la dia. bole plak mak kata 'ala tak paham la. adik la buat' .

see, paham ke tak paham tu perkara lain. kalo btol2 nak blaja, kite mesti tny mcm2 kan? atau suh org repeat ajar ke. sampai skang i masih memikirkan. mak ngan abang ni sebenarnye tak sampai ati ke cucuk abah? ke mmg takmau tahu? i really dun mind kalo i mmg kene wat tetiap malam. but how if i tade? how if i tido umah kwn? sedara mara? how if i dah keje nnt?

tatau nak pk cmne dah. takot!

im sorry abah. my fault. harap abah cepat sembuh.

long time no see

balik nye vacation, malam nye nolie ajak p jj. dia nak cari night dress for formal dinner. code dress : kaler musti la itam. tade kaler lain. sopan. extra code nye musti la long dress because dia formally bertudung. diberi peruntukan sebanyak rm300 dari tempat dia praktikal. dia nak pakai jumaat ni. mmg la azab td mencari. hah ade yg kang kejap muat. ade yg tak berapa nak berkenan, ade yg mahal plak. ade yg tah ape2. last2 ade la satu ni yg berkenan. tak la mahal. hah mana gamba baju tu? aiseh tak amik plak. sbb sebok jd juru tata rias. so the long dress dia akan pakai with tight shirt didalam nye yg berlengan panjang. tudung plak kami suggest satin black. heels je lom carik lagik.

pas carik sampai jj dah tutup separuh pintu, kami p mekdi. makan time!!! ye la carik baju mcm p treasure hunt.

short vacation @ melaka

do not miss me *winks*

so called fanatic. hahaha. found this mase google about katherine heigl.

have a nice day =)

fully loaded

i woke up at 9am this morning since smalam tido awal gile lepas balik dari kenduri umah aunty. oleh kerana sesi mengambil hati harus dijalankan. bawa la mak pagi2 itu ke rumah cousin dia which was my uncle. sbb adik badik uncle tu dtg tido sana dari semalam.

sampai je dalam kul 10 tros sarapan kat umah uncle. haha slamber la kan. bukan umah org len. bg la chance mak borak2, gossip2 ngan cousins dia. tetibe uncle ajak p jusco bukit raja. phew! naseb jusco bukit raja. kalo dia nak p jusco bukit tinggi tak ke haru? dah la ahad. lagi la ramai org dan kebetulan mcm aku je asyik p JJ bukti tinggi tu. bleh menang award org paling selalu datang.

sampai je sana uncle tros kata mau p vincci. wife dia nak tuka jam yg dia beli kat vincci aritu. kami pun p la seramai ramai itu.

ini ecah. huhu oleh kerana tak larat nak mendukung dia. satu troli khas utk meletak dia didalam nye. tgh aunty sebok2 betolkan jam. uncle ckp, kalo mau kasot, pilih la satu. dia mau blanje. hah? kasot? adoi. ni yg letih ni nak pilih kasot. ade la satu sandal ni daku berkenan. skali leh pakcik kata mcm org tua je. awak tu muda pakai la tinggi sket. lalu dia pilihkan. ade la 3 dia pilih, ni la yg aku pilih.

hah nape pilih yg ni? ntah nape. satu maybe sbb pakcik nye syarat haruslah ade tumit. hahaha mmg la dia tgh torture daku. dia tau anak sedara dia ni mmg ske pakai sliper. dua maybe sbb dia yg pilih. lagi 2 tu lg la aku takot pakai. hahaha

hah pas p vincci, kami p makan kat Johnny's. bese la taste pakcik ku. ikot ske dia la. kami ikot je.

hah pas makan, balik umah uncle balik. singgah lak beli kuih muih makan ptg. karipap ade, tauhu sumbat ade, pulut panggang ade. melantak lg. sronok je rase bile kumpul sedara mara ni.

tibe2 pakcik dpt idea lak. mari pegi jusco bukit tinggi!! kali ni hanya dia laki bini, saya dan satu lg second cousin daku. jalan punye jalan. makan lagiii. adoi brapa kali makan la. malam ni singgah makan kat Laksa Shack. order la asam laksa. not bad la. so-so je laksa itu. pas makan jalan2 lagik kat jusco tu. skali pakcik wat gempak lg.

hah dia belikan satu lg kasot. tah pnah seumur idop nak pakai kasot gini rupe. puas ku tepis, ku elak, ku larikan diri. pakcik belikan jugak. bukan tanak. tersangatlah nak tambah2 org blanje. yg blanje la pakcik sendiri. tp segan plus takot mak marah. ye la. takot la mak abah marah amik barang org bg ni. skali pakcik kata anggap je adiah utk sem lepas dpt dekan. so terima je la.

tgh bayar tu pakcik kata, pakcik mmg teringin tgk anak anak saudara pompuan dia ni melawa. tanak pakai sliper2 ni. sbb fesyen utk pompuan ni cantik2. bile ade rezeki lebey, ape salah kongsi. plak dah? kene melawa la lepas ni? pastu dia ade gak ckp. nak arap makcik kami. i mean the 1st wife, anak anak pompuan dia takde chance nak melawa sbb mak nye kontrol abes. naseb la 2nd wife ini slamber je. hahaha sbb dia pun dpt jugeee.

apa apa pun. mekaseh pakcik. tp persoalan disini. ke mana harus ku pakai kedua dua kasot ini? mati la gwe!

p/s i will b away till wednesday. take care blogbuddies

im getting better

since im getting better from illness, i volunteer kan diri pd mak nak p bayar bills kat pej pos. hah oleh kerana pej pos ade dlm jusco, mari kite p jusco huhu. byr bil tak sampai 5 minit. tp angkut je kwn2 yg ade utk berjalan sakan.

hah org yg tere masak sbb blaja memasak kat uitm sedang meneliti brg2 buat cake ni. hah kami tgk je. sbb dia je paham apa kegunaan sesuatu barang tu. huhuh

bile org yg blaja memasak dah tgk2 barang memasak. org yg cube nak blaja masak diatas ni pun sebok gak nak pegang barang2 masak memasak. puas la dia pk ape natang dia pegang tu. huhua

caya tak lepas p bahagian dapur, kami p barang elektrik. tp lupe lak nak amik gamba since sume terpegun tgk peti ais, tv, mixer, vacum cleaner. hahaha batak kami sume ni. ade la impian sang blaja memasak tu nak beli mixer. cap ape tah. tau tak rege bape? rm2k++ tau. gile mahal rege nye. padahal pd kami yg sedang2 blaja masak ni mixer is mixer. hanya skadar je. tah apsal sampai nak dkat 3 riban tah.

bile masuk bahagian tv, kami warning la si pandai masak. tatau la kalo dia lebey prefer pilih beli mixer dari tv yg besa bapak ni. huhu. sronok btol tgk2 bajet jd org kaya. huhu. pastu kan kami singgah lak tempat jual peti ais. mak aihhh. syurga btol. peti ais yg leh masuk kami pun ade. sume peti ais beso2 kami bukak. siap pk ape nak letak hahaha. naseb tade promoter. takat peti ais kecik2 tu tanak pandang la. hahaha.

bile dah penat jalan2, ketawa, buat lawak tekak pun haus. lapa pun ade gak la. mari singgah pit stop.

hah mari singgah oldtown kopitiam. tp too bad kami tak dpt seat yg sandar. kalo dpt yg sandar mau 3 jam kami melepak ekeke. kami decided mau makan roti bakar pastu tuna toast. mcm la kat umah tak leh buat kan? huhu. ape yg pelik nye di kopitiam jusco bukit tinggi?

hahaha dia suh tandakan menu sendiri. hahaha gile siot. tp ade tax. mampos takmau tulis. suh pekerja dia je tandakan. tak kose i nak tanda. i coti okek. kenot pegang pen, pensel ape saje la. yg bes nye dtg la pekerja cina. agaknye baru masok. si yg tak pandai masak tu order la air Coke. bleh ke chinese girl tu tny 'apa tu coke?'

hah kami pandang sesama sendiri. aik perlu ke kami ckp gune slang mandarin? hahaha pastu kami ckp la nak cocacola. baru la cine tu paham. hmm kalo la CEO coke dpt tau ade lg manusia yg tatau ape tu coke, mesti nanges kan? abes la org marketing kene bambu. hahaha

hah si pandai masak minum white coffee ice. si tak pandai masak minum coke. si amik gamba minum white milk tea ice. ala teh ais je sbenanye. nama je canggeh ekeke

hah ni muke dia bile dah kenyang. bile dah kenyang mari balik laa. sbb tak dpt kosi sandar. hahahaha.

p/s result final exam dah kuar. alhamdulillah semua lulus but pointer a bit jatuh =( btw, congratulations to me hehe

emptyness

we do have friends aite?

we do have friends since we went to kindergarten.

we have so-so friends, we have gud friends.

and i was wondering,

why in the middle of my age rite now

when everyone is getting older,

when everyone could see a better view of life,

when everyone like wanted to move a step forward,

to become more matured, more serious in life,

and even more so called being wise,

im still here.

even when u were among ur best buddies

as always, as i assume

u wont be on their top list for most favour person

then i realize, im not their best buddies.

im just a person who fulfilled other person's emptyness

for a while. until they can find other way

to make them not to feel empty.

i made them not to feel empty.

and i made it for my own too

the things

i dunno where to start. i dunno how to start.

im feeling unwell these few days. i tried to make things easy. tried to be a positive thinker. yeah eventhough it been happened to me since i was 15 and 18 and 21 and 22. so? i should knew this better. and everytime i met the doctor, they will say im fine. nothing to worried. it just di usia mcm ni hormon unstable. ups and downs.

trust me. tak sume dpt rase ape i rase. but yet still alhamdulillah im still alive. im not gonna complaint about this thing anymore. but i just want to say that i sgt frust. totally frust with my self, my body and my thoughts.

these few days i tried to calm down on my own. but ye la. i tried to act like a normal which actually tak la normal sgt kan? so bile dah tak terdaya nak sabar, tak terdaya nak pk positif dan dah tak terdaya tanak emotionally hurt, i cried. i cried to myself. i cried to my life. and i cried because pity me i cant do nothing about it unless dari bersabar.

im all cried out. i frust. i wish i get well soon. i mean fully well.

i luv my life and i will always try to love them even sometimes it sucks

no tittle. just for fun

help!

im not feeling well these 2 days. not going anywhere too.

i cant sleep rite now. im starving.

i need foods and i need someone to talk

im afraid to sleep. really.

the last month

i had a boring saturday! yes. boring. due to lesen ku suda expired tanpa disedari. so i have to wait until monday nak renew lesen. tunggu la kot2 ade sape2 ajak kuar.

udahnye tgk tv je la. greys anatomy pun takleh tgk. tersekat sekat dvd nye. lg la menambahkan rase panas dihati. so tgk la tv. since abang keje. tade sape mau rebut cenel tv. tp bosan plak cite sume siang arini.

im not going for jogging this evening too. partner jogging p ngedate. bese la bopren tak sehat. ape lg makanan dimasak bagai, musti la p jenguk kekasih ati dia. so dari tade wat pape, mari exercise basuh kete sendiri.

usually i will send the car to car wash. tp saje mau peluh2kan badan sambil ditemani mak amik angin petang didpan umah.

hah finally, malam ade pun org ajak kuar makan! yey! melepak kat kedai makan sampai la sume kosi2 di meja lain dah diangkat dan siap dia dah suh bayar, kami lom gak nak beredar. padahal mcm la dah lama tak jumpe deme2 tu. takpe, slamber. amoi waitress pun baik je layan kami2. siap btolkan bahasa mandarin yg kami ckp kat dia.

around 12 lebey balik umah, layan dvd cite taxi. then here i am. blogging as usual. such a boring day.


p/s windu plak ngan pompan yg bg aku coti